Soon The New Day

Last night I wrote my Aquarian lover a Dear John letter.  Part of me really wants him to respond, to see if we can give this relationship a real chance, but the other part of me is doubtful and thinks I will get no reply. He is never around and while I have adjusted to that, I have not adjusted comfortably.  It’s more of a defeated acceptance of a situation I cannot seem to change.  I can’t live like that.  Not anymore.  I have to take better care of myself.

This morning I got up at about 6:15 washed my face, brushed my teeth, fed my birds and decided to go for a walk by the river after dropping my check off at the rental office.  It was good to get my body in motion and meditating in the breeze and sun by the river was like a balm for my spirit while listening to Amel Larrieux and Shinedown.  It was a good walk and once I got a nice warm shower afterward I felt so much better.  I was able to start this new day with a better spirit and hope.

Soon the new day breaks the dawn.  Today is a chance for something to go right and even if it’s not all I want it to be, things can get better.  I hope.

~ by legacyleonard on June 27, 2008.